Thursday, January 7, 2010
Artie Lange is currently in the hospital, after a suicide attempt. He stabbed himself repeatedly. This breaks my heart...not just because I am a fan, but because I have been there. I struggled for years with an overwhelming desire to harm and/or kill myself. Actually, 10 years ago this month, I wielded a box cutter against myself, in an attempt to numb, well, everything. I don't even remember if I was trying to kill myself, I just wanted everything to stop, all thoughts, all discomfort. Thankfully, my boyfriend at the time, was there, to stop me from going far too far. Ironically, I was sober at the time.
I feel like the luckiest girl in the world, that somehow the uncontrollable urge to self-destruct has been removed from my life. There were certain events in my life that helped me get here, not the least of which was having a child. I have written about this before. For some people, it seems like nothing ever seems to help them stop, imploding. From the bottom of my heart, I hope that something gives for Artie. Something that will save him from himself.
You can read about the news here and learn more about him here.